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Hiya, Dreamwidth friends! It is time for another Ruth spews thoughts about fannish things post. This is a real person version; I have not ruled out the possibility of a TV/movies/books version too.


Eldest Direction

First, Louis Tomlinson. His album has a release date! [personal profile] lakeeffectgirl and I have tickets to two back-to-back shows! His face is adorable!

One of his recent singles is "Kill My Mind." The first time I listened to it, I kept thinking his voice sounded like someone else, and it took me a bit to place that it reminded me of Brian Molko from Placebo. I went on a whole teenage music nostalgia journey (no idea how Louis feels about Placebo, but I'm sure he'd be pleased that I listened to some Oasis), and then turned it into a Tumblr post no one read. (That's a joke. I mean, it's true no one read it, but I don't really care that they didn't.) I learned two things from that exercise: 1. I know all the words to "Champagne Supernova." 2. There is a limit to how many videos you can embed into a Tumblr text post.

His most recent single is "We Made It," and I cannot tell you how many feelings I have about this song. It's a love song about his partner where he reminisces about visiting her at uni: "Share a single bed and tell each other what we dream about / Things we'd never say to someone else out loud." Friends, friends, I can't tell you how much I love that. It's a love song where the key is talking to each other and building emotional intimacy! Plus the bedsharing! My other favorite lyric from it is "Never comin' down with your hand in mind." Handholding! Ugh, so many of my favorite things all in one song. But also, beyond that, I've been thinking about how few love songs, particularly love songs by men, are about the emotional intimacy of building a relationship. This might be the most romantic song I've heard in years. I also recommend this acoustic version. Tumblr's auto-looping of videos is usually annoying, but in this case, yes, I do want to listen to that song over and over again.

One of the things people have latched onto in this round of promo is Louis's hatred of avocados. He said in this interview that if you liked them five years ago, you're fine, but he's very opposed to the trendiness of them. I am dying to know how his hatred of avocados goes over with his kid. His kid is a Southern Californian; he's going to eat avocados at friends' houses if not at his mom's.

Side note about his kid's mom: I can't tell if she actually looks about twelve years old in this picture or if it's just that the top of her dress looks like something I would have sen people wear in my childhood in the 80s.


Designer Direction

Next, Harry Styles. (He used to be fluffy bunny direction, but if he's not going to be a fluffy bunny - see below for the most recent video - he needed a new name, and I didn't want to use [personal profile] lakeeffectgirl's Gucci Direction on my public Twitter where people searching for Gucci might find it.) I read an excellent Twitter thread comparing the most recent Rolling Stone profile of Harry to the most recent Guardian profile of Taylor Swift. I agree with so much of it, and I have some additions:
  • In addition to the contrast of "Just date amazing women, or men, or whatever, who are going to fuck you up, and explore and have an adventure and let it affect you and write songs about it." as a positive thing for Harry with the criticism Taylor got for doing the same thing, the other thing I hate about it is the framing of other people, particularly women, as fodder for a man's art. The women he dates are real people with their own real lives. They do not exist for him to write music about.

  • There's a whole bit of the article about how he made his second album while doing a lot of psychedelics: "The chocolate edibles were kept in the studio fridge, right next to the blender." There is zero acknowledgment of the overlapping privileges that mean he could not only do that but tell a reporter about it. On the whole, famous rich white people don't get in trouble for illegal drug use, and men don't have to worry about what other people might do to them if they're intoxicated the way women do.

  • I was really underwhelmed by the bit where he says, about the End Gun Violence and Black Lives Matter stickers on his guitar, "Everyone in that room is on the same page and everyone knows what I stand for. I'm not saying I understand how it feels. I’m just trying to say, 'I see you,'" especially because it's lumped in with the part about him waving pride flags on stage. Look, I know everyone has to make their own choices about coming out and being out, but personally, I found this really disappointing. The vibe I got from his whole pride flags thing was that he was one of us, and this reads more like he's just a straight guy who's cool with other people. I mean, I'm pretty sure he's not actually a completely straight guy (based on the "Medicine" lyrics and the "Lights Up" video), but personally as a queer person, I really want him to acknowledge that he's one of us. Also, I'm really angry that the message of most celebrity coming outs is that it's okay to be out as long as you're already successful, and while he's already passed that level of success, he is still kind of a baby and I wouldn't be so irked about it now as I expect to be if he comes out at a much later date.
Do I sound disillusioned about him? I kind of am. He was also the host and musical guest on SNL, and his opening monologue has a "joke" that's a dig at Zayn, and apparently there is controversy about whether or not it's "just a joke." People, have you listened to "Perfect"? That would be a great song except for the part where they - including Harry - decided not to cut the bit that's clearly a dig at Taylor Swift. Harry has no problem shading someone he used to love. I know people want him to be better than that, but he isn't.

Harry also has two recent singles. I was kind of eh about "Lights Up." This is probably partly because of the video: I'm a lesbian; I don't want to see him shirtless and oiled up. (This post is basically the only thing I love about that video.) I like "Watermelon Sugar" better. I'm also pretty sure it's about going down on a girl. He did say the new album is all about having sex and feeling sad.

[personal profile] lakeeffectgirl and I have tickets to one of his shows, which I'm excited about! I didn't see him last year even though I really wanted to, and I'm all for BFF fangirl adventures.


The Other Directions

It seems like if I'm talking about the direction children, I should talk about all of them, so here's one bullet point for each of the others plus a bonus one:
  • I am deeply unimpressed with Liam's song where he is an extremely rich guy talking about how he needs to make money. Deeply unimpressed.

  • It's cracking me up that Zayn has a song where he repeatedly sings, "Light me up" just after Harry's "Lights Up." I know it's not really similar at all, but I'm still amused.

  • Niall is the only one of them whose new music I've heard on the radio. (Actually, first I just kept hearing them saying that was/up next is his song, but now I've been in the car at the right time to catch it.) The station that's been playing him is the one that was probably the most likely to have played Louis's new music before they changed format from alternative to more mainstream pop.

  • Bonus list item: I don't really like Shawn Mendes's music, except that Niall posted video on Instagram of himself dancing to "If I Can't Have You," and now every time I hear it on the radio, I think of Niall dancing and sing along.


Directions Fandom

At the point that directions fandom flipped out about my de-aging story, I was signed up for an exchange and had written about a thousand words of the story for it. I emailed the mods to see if I should stay in or drop out of the exchange, and while I was waiting for them, I started thinking about the things I would do with the story if I weren't using it for an exchange. By the time they got back to me, I decided I really wanted to write a version of the story with all the options I'd thought about, so I wrote something else for the exchange and ran the Choose Your Own Adventure Fic Fest so I would have some structure to actually finish the story version with options. As of this writing, that story has seven kudos, which is hilarious to me. The choose your own adventure format was new to me, and it was the first time in my 20+ years in fandom that I wrote tentacle porn, so I'm happy with it. I also learned in the process of planning the fest that fanfiction.net bans choose your own adventure stories, which is the kind of thing that surely has some sort of story behind it.


The Jonas Brothers

An update to the last time I talked about #JoBrosRenaissance2019: we went to see them! [personal profile] lakeeffectgirl, Sky, and I went to the show in Milwaukee in September. It was so great. So great. Being there with two of my best friends in a crowd full of 17,000 other women and girls who were there to cheer and sing and dance out of sheer love was the greatest thing.

We skipped the first opener, but got there in time for Bebe Rexha, who was the second opener. I love Bebe so much. Like the last time I saw her, she brought a dancing audience member up on stage with her. We'd noticed him in the pit before that, and he continued to be a great dancer on stage, to the point that Bebe was startled and delighted. I (again) cried when she did "Meant to Be." I like the song okay - I'll sing along to it on the radio - but it's pretty heteronormative and a little country in a bad way. It becomes something different when Bebe does it solo, and I have a lot of feelings about it.

The JoBros are amazing, of course. They'd have to be; they've been doing this since they were kids. We watched the Chasing Happiness documentary the night before, so I was already having feelings about them. They're so good on stage. It was fun and felt very rapid-paced in a good way. I am also in awe of the stagecraft: there were curved screens behind the stage that moved. They came down from the ceiling on a platform and up from under the stage on individual platforms. The B stage turned slowly and raised very high up in the air. They had confetti and lights above their stage that matched their music. They also had pyrotechnics, both some sparkly fireworks type and jets of flame for "Burnin' Up." I'd never been to a show with pyrotechnics before, and I was amazed that we could feel the heat from the flames twenty rows up. There was someone in the crowd near the B stage with a sign that said, "Frankie is our favorite Jonas Brother," and it kept getting shown on the screens because it was right behind the JoBros when they were on the B stage.

We didn't get a lot of sleep after the concert, because we had to be up early to get me to the airport, so we were all very tired and pretty quiet in the car in the morning. It wasn't a bad tired; I was exhausted, and I felt so incredibly happy.


WIPS

Current works in progress:
  • Harry/Zayn girl uni AU. They're both girls and there are a lot of sex scenes. I have no idea what I'm doing with it except planning another sex scene sometime after the one I'm in the middle of.

  • Canon partner girl AU (meaning: girl!Louis/Eleanor). I originally wanted a bit where girl!Louis is the drunk girl in a bathroom telling Eleanor she's beautiful, and then I, of course, decided it should be about Eleanor's queer identity discovery. Many thanks to Eleanor and her bff for posting Instagram photos that make for good references for what queer Eleanor might be like.

  • Still Star-Crossed modern AU with hickeys. After not working on this for something like a year, I went in and finished the scene I was on. It now only needs one more sex scene to be done. Will I ever write that scene? Who knows.
Current works not in progress:
  • Yuletide. I have an idea for a backup story on one of the other fandoms my recipient requested, but no solid ideas about a story for the fandom we matched on, which I really would like to write something for. I can tell I'm starting to get back to normal after my dental surgery, so maybe by next week I will figure this out.

  • Girl!Louis/Harry. I got to a point just before a sex scene and stopped working on it, but maybe "Watermelon Sugar" will inspire me to write that sex scene where Harry goes down on Louis while she's wearing a skirt.

  • Harry/Nick or Harry & Nick kid fic. This was going to be a story where they're not together but they have a kid together. I don't think I'm ever going back to it, so I guess I should wip amnesty it at some point.

  • GBBO fic. I am probably not going to write the story where Henry dates a girl and Michael pines and then the girl breaks up with Henry and tells him she can't give him the kind of sex he wants and Henry tells David and Nik about it and they set him up with a friend of theirs to find out how he likes being dommed by a guy and then Michael kisses him and he says that doesn't want to risk falling for someone who doesn't like the same things he does again and then Michael says he's thought about having Henry on his knees for him and telling him he's a good boy and then they live happily ever after with Michael being Henry's sweet and gentle dom, but I am going to think about it a lot.
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Hello Dreamwidth friends. This is a periodic here are some fannish things I want to write about but don't want to put on Tumblr and/or are too long for Twitter post.

In the promo for his new single, Louis said about the Kardashians:
I am not the biggest fan. I have younger sisters. I get a bit lost in trying to find why people are so drawn to them. The influence and how much time people spend on them is something I am very conscious of as a brother. There’s not much that bugs me but they do my f***ing head in. I feel a deep level of protection for my sisters.
Uh, as someone who follows his sisters on Instagram, I find him complaining about the Kardashians kind of ironic. I mean, I guess it's possible that the stuff that makes me raise my eyebrows a bit is specifically Kardashian-influenced, but it seems to me more like his sisters are the influencers. Most of what they all post is in their stories (where most of their Instagram stuff is) falls into three categories:
  • Food.

  • Generally adorable things about their youngest siblings who they all refer to as "my babies." (Note: the babies recently turned five.)

  • Things that make me shake my head and think, "Way to uphold the patriarchy."
One of my friends said of them, "their faces are all so anime-shaped," which I think might be more of a deliberate makeup and expression look than what their faces naturally look like - their mom wasn't that way, and Louis and the baby twins aren't anime-shaped at all. I feel like there are a lot of intersecting things here that I don't totally understand. I mean, I get some of the upholding the patriarchy stuff, but I think there's some Instagram influencer culture I'm missing, and I'm almost certain there's some British class structure stuff I don't understand. Anyway, that's enough of the being creepy on the internet portion of this entry.

The new single! Oh no, I cried. I also love that the lyric video is a sped up video of him writing out the lyrics by hand.

In a promo video thing for the new single, Louis says that he just needs a few more songs for the album, which he's been saying for, like, a year at least. He signed a new record deal last month, which I was hoping would push the album along. I really want him to go on tour this year! But I guess if he doesn't, [personal profile] lakeeffectgirl and I can go see the JoBros instead.

Yes, that's right, the Jonas Brothers are back! (This is the most hilarious post about it. I can't stop laughing.) I have been greatly enjoying #JoBrosRenaissance2019. I've been listening to them all week, which means I'm wandering around singing in my head things like, "I've been to the year 3000 / not much has changed / but they lived underwater / and your great-great-granddaughter / is doing fine." The video for "Sucker," their new song, is mildly not safe for work because it includes Joe, partly clothed, in suspension bondage. That's right: the JoBros put out a video with suspension bondage. Lest you worry, it's his partner who has him tied up, because she and Kevin and Joe's wives are all in the video. Lingering question: did they fake the bondage, hire a bondage expert, or did Sophie already know what she was doing?

Also in hilarious JoBros videos, they played Spill Your Guts or Fill Your Guts on James Corden's show. It's incredibly hilarious, and you get to hear Nick say, "I knew it would be a penis." (Warning for really gross food things.)

Speaking of boyband members with famous partners, I listened to this clip where Nick (Grimshaw - we've moved back to the direction children) and Sinead (the entertainment reporter) talk about Liam dating Naomi Campbell. Sinead reads him a tabloid bit about how an inside source says, "They're having mindblowing sex," and after Nick gets over being scandalized (I love how scandalized he is when talking about sex), he says that it must be someone from Liam's side of things saying that.

I watched this interview yesterday, wherein Louis spends most of the interview looking at Harry instead of at the camera, he calls Harry "Harold," and they have their arms linked at the end. I have a lot of feelings! (But, uh, not tinhatty feelings, because I know they're not really together. I mean, if you've known me for a long time, you probably know I'm not a tinhat, but, uh, I find it very hard to figure out if people who are into this pairing are tinhats or not, so it seems worth clarifying.) Also in that interview, Liam asks Harry, "What's that song that you and Zayn were dancing to?" He also asks that in this interview two years later, where it's phrased as, "What's that song that you and Zayn always dance to?" This means it really is a thing Zayn and Harry did as a thing, not just once. But also: Liam doesn't know the name of the song, which would be more understandable with a different song, but this one is "Jessie's Girl."

I've been thinking that Zayn's career is kind of like Bebe's: when they were tiny babies, they were in projects where they really used their incredible voices in interesting and creative ways, and then when they went solo, they went for a much more mainstream vocal style. I mean, they both still have amazing voices, but I think they're not using them in the same ways they used to.

Directions works actively in progress:
  • Big bang, which I can't tell you more about except to say that I have a rough draft!

  • Girl!Louis/Harry, which is mostly an excuse to write about girl!Louis's clothes. Not something I can finish at work because the next thing is a sex scene.

  • Tropey omegaverse, which is going to be almost all sex scenes, and therefore also not work safe.
Not directions works in progress I really do want to go back to someday:
  • Red Riding Hood (2011) post-movie fic, which has only a couple of paragraphs and, of course, needs a sex scene next.

  • Still Star-Crossed modern AU with hickeys, which really just needs, like, two more sex scenes.

  • Fast and Furious Mia story sequel, which is work safe but mostly I want to just think about it instead of writing it.
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Rating: Explicit.

Summary: Mike knows he's acting out, waiting for someone - Bill, usually - to do something about it. It won't be enough, but it'll be something.

Notes: This was originally going to be Mike/Kevin kink with Mike subbing, and then I realized it was really more of a Mike/Bill story. My intention if I were going to finish it was going to be to replace Kevin with someone who fit the story better.

Warning/Enticement: Kink, including spanking, bondage, and discussion of knife play.

Story on AO3


My Hands In All the Spaces )
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Summary: Mike swings his feet down onto the floor and slides past Kevin in the doorway. It's too close, and Kevin can't help the way his eyes sweep over Mike's form. Mike's eyes crinkle at the edges, and then he's gone.

Notes: This was going to be a college AU, with poetry, and then I got distracted by the rest of TAI and Christine and lost track of it. Title from Walt Whitman's "Among the Multitude."

Story on AO3


That One Knows Me )
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I really want a story where Pete meets an unexpected dude somewhere (like Starbucks or the park or Whole Foods) who is really good with Bronx, to the point that Bronx invites him to sit/play/come home with them. Eventually, Pete and unexpected dude fall in love and have sex on days when Bronx is with Ashlee.

The question about this plot bunny is: who should the unexpected dude be? A Jonas brother? ("You're dating a Jonas," Gabe says, with a look that says way more than his words.) Chris Pine? ("Captain Kirk," Gabe says. "Is it out of this world?") Peter Dinklage? (Gabe says, "I can't believe you found another Peter even shorter than you.") Suggestions welcome!
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I had this goal to post something ficcish every Sunday to Saturday week this month, and then this week turned out to be very busy. So instead of actual fic, have some plot bunnies. If you're a regular [livejournal.com profile] anon_lovefest reader, some of these might seem familiar.

Cross-Band Threesomes )

Empires )

Cobra Starship )

The Cab )

Panic! at the Disco )

Miscellaneous )
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One of my bingo squares is wingfic. I wrote the very beginning, but never did anything with it. Possibly because once I wrote this it almost sounded more like a Mike/Bill story. There are notes about the Mike/Kevin version below. (Also, I apparently have no idea how tall Bill is. This says 6'2", which must have seemed right for some reason. A quick google gives me 6'1" or 6'3", so maybe I just split the difference.)


Wingfic )
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One of my bingo squares is Regency romance. I wrote most of the story, but never quite finished it (although the missing parts are in the middle, so it does have an ending). I also never quite got all of the Regency stuff down, so historical/fake historical details and address may be all wrong.


A Most True and Unsettling Affection )
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One of my bingo squares is psychic bond. I wrote the very beginning (with other names) in answer to a writing prompt I no longer remember from my writing group, but never finished it. This is an AU where Mike and Bill work at a music store. I don't think I ever figured out what Kevin does.


Three Notes )
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One of my bingo squares is circus. I wrote much of the story, including both the very last scene and the important to my idea about this story scene, but I'm not going to finish it, so here it is, [SOMETHING GOES HERE] brackets and all.

Warning: Past death of Mike's family.


Mike/Kevin Circus AU )
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If I made a list of my favorite stories I never wrote, this would be near the top of it. One of my bingo squares is runaway/street kid. I'm a big fan of flipping things around, so I wanted to do this the unlikely way and have Kevin be the street kid. I also wanted to write a story where Mike is on really good terms with his parents. I wrote the beginning and the beginning of the alternate version, but never finished it, despite thinking about it a lot. I did, however, outline the whole thing in an email to [livejournal.com profile] icanbreakthesky, so this includes that as well as the bits I actually wrote.


Mike/Kevin Street Kid AU )

WIP Post

Feb. 15th, 2011 09:05 pm
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I've seen a couple of different WIP posts/memes floating about, and I love both reading and doing those. This is bits from everything I think I might actually write more of or finish editing, except the Leighton/Vicky-T, which I still might finish for [livejournal.com profile] bandombigbang and so can't be shared elsewhere. There are a lot of things I don't think I'm going to write more of, and if you all will help me remember, I'll do some snippet/plot bunny posts this weekend. (You'll notice there are no Mike/Kevin bingo squares in here. I don't think I'm ever going to finish any of those. I'll eventually post them as never finished fic instead.)

I had to retrieve one of these and a couple of things for the plot bunny posts from Twitter, where I also found that I'd said this: "Description of my Twitter habits: Sometimes I write kinky sex. And then sometimes I interrupt the kinky sex to write different kinky sex." So true!


WIPs )
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In this round, I wrote:

Oatmeal Raisin (Mike/Kevin) for [livejournal.com profile] allyndra: "Mike," Kevin calls, "why is there butter on the counter?"

Going the Same Place (Mike/Gabe) for [livejournal.com profile] mayqueen517: "We're going the same place. We can give you a ride."

girl!Tom/werewolf!Sean 2 (Tom/Sean, sequel to girl!Tom/werewolf!Sean) for an anonymous personage as requested by [livejournal.com profile] eleanor_lavish: On the full moon after they run into Mike and Bill, Sean can't settle.
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Okay, technically my birthday isn't until tomorrow and I'm not promising anything until Sunday, but that's not as catchy a title. I do have a three-day weekend, though, so leave me a prompt and I'll write you something by Sunday night! Lurkers are always welcome to leave prompts. I may drift from your prompt a bit.
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Today I'm thankful for the absolute entertainment that JoBros discussion has brought to my life.
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Master Post

Listening to this now, I'm not so sure it holds together as a mix on its own, but it put me right in the mood to work on the story every time I listened to it.

Download

Must Seem So Strange (spoiler free track listing):

1. Dude Looks Like a Lady - Aerosmith
2. Jesus Doesn't Love Me - Dragonette
3. Mouth (When I Kiss Your Lips) - Merril Bainbridge
4. I'm Yours Tonight - The Academy Is...
5. Fire Door - Ani DiFranco

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Spoilery Version )

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