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Sooooo I'm all-in on One Direction fandom now. All three of my computer desktops are now Nick and Harry. I have a YouTube playlist of my favorite One Direction songs. If the last week is any indication, I'm going to spend my summer chinhandsing at interviews and live performances. Anyway, no one else is super excited about it with me, so here's a post of things:

  • This is a video of an interview with Niall Horan and Shawn Mendes that could double as the beginning of a Sean Cody video. They talk about how they became friends, which started with "DMing all flirtsy" according to Shawn, and Niall says, "I love you, Shawn." Approximately fifty percent of my Tumblr dash was comprised of this video for a full twenty-four hours.

  • When I was first reading some fic, I asked on Twitter if Louis is actually jerk because he kind of seems like one in fic, and the two people who answered said yes. But then I read a bunch of Nick/Louis fic. And then I watched a bunch of music video behind the scenes things and discovered that baby, clean-shaven Louis was THE PRETTIEST THING EVER, which (a) is appealing and (b) explains a lot about this fandom.

  • I read this interview with Louis this week, and then watched a bunch of live performances. One of the points of the article is teasing out the reasons Louis is pursuing a solo career instead of sticking to the management side of things. It's so clear from watching live performances that he loves it, and I'm fascinated that that isn't one of the reasons in the article. Does it seem to obvious? Does he not quite realize it? Is it the tender part that feels too vulnerable to expose?

  • Speaking of live performances, the directions frequently have color-coded bands on their mics. Harry is solid green, Liam is solid red, Louis is solid blue, Zayn is solid yellow, and Niall is the Irish flag stripes. I don't know what to do with this information.

  • I'm fascinated by the live performances of Louis and Bebe's "Back to You." He's clearly slightly baffled by what he's supposed to do when she goes in for a hug at the end of the song. I also watched one where the camera was on Bebe pretty much the whole time, even when he was the one singing. I mean, part of it is that she moves around and he doesn't, but I'm highly amused by the idea that Bebe is a bigger star than a member of One Direction.

  • Miss You is my favorite Louis song. I love the part where everything drops out and he says, "Shit," and then the music starts up again for "Maybe I miss you." I'm also obsessed with the way he says the word "love." I don't have the musical or linguistic vocabulary to talk about how interesting I find the mix of his accents - his singing voice, the way he half says, half sings that "we were in love / now we're strangers" verse, and the way he talks in interviews are all different.

  • Speaking of interviews, there are a few interviews where the directions manage to be smooth, but I'm really surprised by how many of them are kind of a mess. If nothing else, anyone who ever interviews them absolutely needs to give them each their own mic.

  • Don't give Harry things in interviews. He has a tendency to throw them over his shoulder and off into the set. (I've seen him do it in two different interviews.)

  • Are there rec lists made by adults? Because somehow a lot of the fic is just not what I'm looking for, and I think part of it is that the highly-kudosed things all appeal to a much younger group. I've definitely read a couple of things that I would have loved when I was twenty, but are just not quite what I want at thirty-eight.

  • Possibly the worst thing about the fic is that this fandom doesn't use canonical AU tags, which makes it really hard to filter out AUs. I want to read full-on falling in love in the midst of being in a boy band fic.

  • I'm kind of obsessed with this picture of Nick and his mom. There's something about the way he's standing that I love, and I also enjoy that they're in front of a giant mirror and his mom is doing her makeup in the tiny mirror on her compact.

  • This is a video where Nick shows off what I googled to find out is a legit designer necklace, but is also a thick chain with a padlock, and I one million percent need the story where he's showing off because his dom gave him a collar.

  • Once upon a time, One Direction was on Graham Norton with Ian McKellen and, unsurprisingly, Harry flirts with and cuddles up to Sir Ian. I would read that fic.

  • This picture of Nick gives me alllll the I'm a lesbian but I want to climb into his lap and cuddle feelings.

  • Harry is on a world tour and he hasn't worn the same stage outfit twice.

  • There's an interview I'm too lazy to google for you where Liam says that at one point a producer told him that he could look at each of the other members of the band and see exactly what kind of music they would make, but that Liam could make a variety of kinds of music. Having watched some live performances and a couple of videos, it seems completely obvious that Liam would make the kind of music he's making.

  • Side note: Liam and his partner legitimately named their son Bear.

  • I love Liam's Bedroom Floor, and then I kept hearing Maroon 5's "Wait" on the radio and thinking, "That sounds kind of like "Bedroom Floor," so I looked them up on Wikipedia and they have two of the same writers. I was very proud of myself for recognizing that. I also listened to some One Direction songs that people suggested I might like and didn't make it more than about a minute into "18" before I thought, "Is this an Ed Sheeran song?" I was right about that too.

  • Nick is leaving The Breakfast Show at the end of the summer. He'll still be on the radio, but this still feels like a get into a fandom, the fandom gets cancelled situation.
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Sooooo after literal years of avoiding One Direction fandom, I was in the d/s tag on AO3 looking for something to read and thought about a One Direction story, "I might as well click on this since I've read most of the rest of the highly-kudosed things in this tag and I'm really not reading some of the other fandoms I haven't read yet," and then I liked it, so I read a bunch of One Direction kinkfic, and then I was reading at work so I read some work-safe fic. I found it in some ways restful to read fic in a fandom I know nothing about because I don't really know or care if it's out of character. Then after reading a lot of it, I thought, "this Louis guy seems like kind of a jerk," and when I asked on Twitter, the response was that he is kind of a jerk, so then I was reading things not the main pairing and somehow ended up reading Nick Grimshaw/Harry Styles fic, and now I care deeply about them and the Twitter consensus seems to be that Harry is actually an adorable fluffy bunny. (For obvious reasons, I'm pretty wary right now of liking anything that involves men.) Anyway, if you are like I was at the beginning and know nothing: Nick Grimshaw is an openly gay celebrity/DJ/radio show show host for BBC Radio 1, Harry Styles is a fluffy-haired member of One Direction who now has a solo album and an acting credit, and they became such close friends in 2012ish that people other than fandom actually thought they were/might be dating.

Some great things about this fandom:
  • There's a lot of fic. A LOT.

  • In one of their on the radio conversations, Nick says that when he got promoted to the Breakfast show, the big boss told him he couldn't tell anyone, so he only told four people: his parents, his friend Aimee (I've gathered from fic that she's his BFF), and Harry.

  • This adorable interview with Harry exists. It's adorable! He seems sensible and thoughtful in a way I like. And also he talks about how great teenage girls are as fans: "Teenage-girl fans – they don't lie. If they like you, they're there. They don't act 'too cool.' They like you, and they tell you."

  • They seem generally nice to each other in fic, and while they do joke around and banter some in their radio stuff, they also seem to genuinely like each other in real life.

  • When Nick had a nighttime show, Harry would just hang around at the studio a lot. This has at least two different actual on the radio references.

  • I have all the feelings about this gifset of Harry just casually chatting with people while holding a baby.

  • There's a radio interview where Nick and Harry talk about watching The Notebook together as it gradually got dark and then suddenly they were watching The Notebook together by candlelight.
Some not great things about this fandom:
  • A lot of the canon is comprised of (a) paparazzi shots and (b) tweets from random people who have spotted them out and about, which I got skeeved out about when I found an actual timeline/primer.

  • I have read a lot of fic, and it all kinds of blends together after a while. (Which is not stopping me from reading more, although I think I've read all of the good work-safe stuff unless I go back to reading other One Direction pairings.)

  • Harry was in a band that sang one of the most catchy awful messages for young women in recent years ("You don't know you're beautiful / That's what makes you beautiful" - blech).

  • Harry has terrible tattoos and loves The Notebook (fandom has a type). Worse, he keeps talking about The Notebook when people ask him about romantic comedies, which makes me think he doesn't understand what a romantic comedy is.

  • This is a very large fandom with a lot of tinhats. I'm not sure I want to get involved in that.
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I've made a few false starts at trying to write out this story and I've told bits and pieces of it before, mostly in tiny comments over Twitter, but I haven't told the whole thing to anyone, not even my closest friends. I didn't want - and still don't want - anyone to tell me my feelings are wrong or give me advice. While I might be able to manage it now, at the time I didn't know how to say, even to the people I'm closest to, "This thing happened and my feelings are hurt. Please only say things to me that can be rephrased as 'Poor baby. I'm sorry that happened to you. I love you/think you're great/know you're awesome.'" Telling this story to all of you feels scary and vulnerable: I'm telling you about something that hurt my feelings, I'm telling you about the soft places where I can be hurt, and I just have to trust that you're not going to use it to hurt me.

A Story )
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So yesterday all I was thinking about was that Tyler Seguin somehow found my post about him, and I thought it was hilarious that he was so bored that he somehow found it. I said a lot of things here and on Tumblr about how I believe in having posts open. This morning I went and read the anon memes and other opinions about it, and I realized that in thinking about how it was my post that got linked, I didn't at all think about how it would affect people who commented on or were linked in the post. I'm sorry. I agree that we have responsibilities to each other in this community, and I'm genuinely sorry that I fell down on those responsibilities and hurt people. :( At this point, the only remaining comments on that post are from people who are okay with their comments remaining or people who commented after it was linked to by TSegs.

I am not going to change my opinion on keeping my posts open. I still very much believe in open fandom. (While also believing that it's not okay to push it at the objects of fandom.) But if this kind of thing ever happens to me again, I will be better about protecting the limits of the other people who were involved in my posts.
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I was going to do things today, but then I got home from running errands after having lunch with friends to find this:



Yes, that is Tyler Seguin tweeting my Tylers Seguin-Brown picspam at Tyler Brown as part of his continuing jealousy over Tyler Brown's girlfriend. (For the record, I talk a lot on Twitter about how adorbs TBrown and Julie are, because they're totally adorbs. No hate here!)

Anyway, I promise I'm not the type to freak out and I won't lock or delete anything because of it. I may, however, not get anything else done today because I might never stop laughing.
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The biggest change hockey has brought to the way I live my fannish life is that it's the first fandom to really make me like vids. This Jordan Eberle/Taylor Hall one is completely charming (let's not talk about how many times I've watched it):



And if you like them, you might want to see their apartment tour:

Video )

Or you might want to watch the interview about their ice cream dates:

Video )
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Claude and Danny are going to play in Berlin together during the lockout.

I'm not sure my body can contain my joy. (Also, I did not realize I was quite this invested in them.)

Now we just need all the fic about them (a) living together in Berlin, (b) hooking up, and (c) Skyping with the kids.
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I'm feeling very between fandoms and non-fannish* at the moment, which means I will probably go back to my between fandoms mode of occasional random fic posting and no discussion. (Watch: in two weeks I'll be in love with something new and won't be able to stop talking about it.)

In other fannish news, I have imported all my fic into AO3. Total number of stories: 409. Even taking into account the fact that that includes some permanently unfinished things, that's a lot of fic. I tried to count how many fandoms it was yesterday, but I got tired of counting at thirty. It's probably somewhere over fifty, even doing things like collapsing individual bands into bandom. I knew I had written a lot of fic in a lot of fandoms over the last thirteen and a half years, but that was possibly even more than I expected.

One more piece of unrelated fannishness: I have Netflix again for a while. (Thanks [livejournal.com profile] allegram and [livejournal.com profile] dedalvs!) My plan was to watch some TOS so I could get all the references in Star Trek reboot fic. Instead, I'm watching/rewatching (I haven't yet hit the point where I stopped watching the first time around) Grey's Anatomy. It's so soapy and sometimes I feel like I'm stuck in it, but I can't stop watching. I loved this show when it started - A soapy medical drama with lots of female characters? Totally my kind of thing! - and then at Escapade one year someone ruined it for me by saying hateful things about Meredith. (I gather she's generally not well-liked. I always liked her.) Alex/Izzie is my Grey's Anatomy OTP forever. I would take fic recs!

Other things I've been watching: Nikita (my favorite show on TV right now), Once Upon a Time (I wasn't into this week's ep; we'll see if that's the show or my mood), Hawaii Five-0 (I'm an ep behind, and I keep holding out hope that it'll get better, but we'll see how it goes), Revenge (love this show, and they hit the reveal I've been waiting for this week), Leverage (sometimes I love this show, sometimes it's just okay), Ringer (I still love this show for its interesting plot).


* My heart and mind are completely occupied by Sherlock but (a) I don't feel qualified to write fic for it (pay no attention to the Google doc behind the curtain), (b) I don't want to talk about it as much as just hold it in my heart, and (c) I don't really want to read discussion about it because I know that if I do, someone will ruin it for me. [back]
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TAI announced today that they are no longer a band. I bring this up largely to disclaim: while I hadn't written any of this down yet, I've actually been writing this entry in my head for a week.

I think I'm kind of done with bandom. Bandom people, I feel sad about this too. I don't want to move on! I'm just not feeling the same way about it anymore. All is not lost, however; there are things I still want to finish. And that brings me to new fandoms. I'm afraid to start writing anything that could become a long story. I'm not ready for that kind of commitment. I'm also working on editing the Leighton/Vicky-T story, and I've reached the point where I never want to look at it again. I don't want that to happen with shiny new fandoms! I almost want a break between fandoms, but that's not the way my mind works.

Anyway, as I said, there are things I still want to finish. There are also things that are finished snippets that just need to be posted. Below the cut are a couple of lists of WIPs and snippets - bandom and otherwise - broken into categories. It's mostly for my own reference (and I'll probably keep a copy in my Google Docs to delete things from as I take care of them), but to make it more interesting, let's treat it like a WIP meme: if you ask about any of them, I will tell you something about it, or bump it up to the top of the posting list for things that are finished.

This List Is Longer Than I Thought )

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