In which things are resolved.
Apr. 7th, 2002 09:28 pm"You're hiding," Liv accused him.
Orlando sighed and threw back the cowl of his robe. "It isn't working very well."
Liv gracefully sank down to sit down in front of him. "I just know where you like to hide." She reached out and touched his knee. "I heard about you and Henry's dad. Are you okay?"
Orlando shook his head. "No. I'm afraid."
"Fear leads to anger."
"I've heard Yoda's lecture too." Orlando sighed. "I'm trying to let it go, but every time I try to meditate, my shields start to slip. I know it was the will of the Force and I'm supposed to accept it, but I'm not ready for it."
Liv rested her hands on his shoulders and squeezed them gently. "Do you want me to shield you while you meditate?"
"Do you have time?"
Liv nodded. "Sean's in a Council meeting. He'll be there all day." She squeezed his shoulders again. "Do you want me to shield you?"
"Yes, please."
Liv let her mind just brush around edge of his, finding the shape of it. She extended her shields out and around him, bringing him within them.
"Oh. Oh, Force, Liv. Thank you." He could still feel Viggo--he didn't think anything short of death would stop that--but everything else was muted. He relaxed into a meditative trance and let the currents of the Force flow through and around him.
He eased himself out of it some time later and breathed a sigh of relief.
Liv brushed a hand over his hair. "You're welcome." She let her hands fall back into her own lap. "Henry was right. You're just glowing with it."
***
"You're here to talk about Orlando, aren't you?"
Viggo nodded. "You already know?"
Henry grinned. "Yeah. It's all over the Temple." He shrugged. "Besides, Orlando came to see me."
Viggo winced. "I should have told you."
"It's okay." Henry reached out and touched his arm. "He's one of my friends and you're my dad." He considered for a moment. "He's scared, but he's just glowing with your bond. You're holding it in a little better, but I can see it from you too."
Viggo smiled faintly. "I can feel him all the time."
Henry hugged his father. "He'll come around once he knows how great you are."
Viggo kissed the top of Henry's head. "Thank you, Henry."
***
Viggo stopped listening and looked up. After trying unsuccessfully to recapture his attention, Sean turned and followed his gaze across the dining hall. Orlando was just coming through the door. Sean watched his eyes flick toward their table, toward Viggo, and then quickly away.
He managed to avoid looking back over at Viggo while he got his food, but once he had a tray in his hands, something drew him to Viggo's table. He sat next to Viggo, close, pressed together from hip to knee. He greeted Henry and Liv, and nodded to Sean.
They tried to carry on a conversation, but neither Viggo nor Orlando paid much attention to it. Henry eventually snapped at them.
"Would you two just go fuck or meditate together or whatever it is you need to do?"
Orlando blushed, and he and Viggo said, "Henry!" in the same shocked tone of voice.
"Look," Henry said, "you have a Force-bond. You never have to be alone again. You have someone who will always love you. You're so lucky. And you don't even care!" He stood and yanked his tray off the table. He swept out of the dining hall, returning his tray on the way.
Viggo sighed heavily. "I'd better--"
Liv reached out and put a hand on his forearm. "I'll go."
Orlando muttered a feeble excuse about needing to be somewhere else and fled.
"He's right," Sean said when the padawans were gone.
"I know that," Viggo growled, frustrated. "I know he's right." He raked his hands through his hair. "I've tried, and he just shuts me out."
Sean snorted. "So make him listen to you." He reached across and touched the back of Viggo's hand. "The Force thinks you belong together. You won't hurt him." He removed his hand. "Go on. Make him listen to you."
Viggo dropped his head. "I don't know how."
Sean's lips quirked. "Listen to the Force."
***
Viggo opened himself up to the bond and let it lead him to Orlando. He knocked on the door he found himself in front of. He knocked again and stretched his awareness out to reach Orlando.
Orlando opened the door only enough to see Viggo. "Viggo," he said softly.
"Can I come in?"
Orlando reluctantly opened the door the rest of the way and let him in.
Viggo couldn't keep himself from cupping Orlando's cheek in his hand any more than Orlando could stop from leaning into the same touch.
"We have to talk." Viggo's words echoed loudly in the empty room.
Orlando nodded. "Sit down," he offered. Viggo sat at one end of the couch. After a short moment of indecision, Orlando took the other end.
"Henry's right," Viggo said. "We have to resolve this." He reached across the seemingly endless expanse of couch separating them and touched Orlando's knee. "Can't you feel how much this hurts?" His thumb stroked small circles on Orlando's leg.
Orlando closed his eyes and reached into himself. It did hurt. He'd managed to avoid thinking about it so much that he hadn't even realized how much it hurt to willingly cut himself off from Viggo. He hadn't realized how much it hurt Viggo to be cut off from him.
"Yes," he whispered. He bowed his head. "I'm sorry," he said softly.
Viggo opened his arms, and Orlando hesitantly came across the couch to settle into them. They let out a combined sigh of relief.
"You have to let me in," Viggo said, his lips brushing against Orlando's hair.
It was an effort to make his breathing slow with Viggo so close, but Orlando managed it. He reached down inside himself and started to dismantle the shields blocking his awareness of Viggo. He reached out along the bond toward Viggo and gasped as it flared to life in his mind.
Viggo was there, everywhere. Viggo knew everything about him and he knew everything about Viggo. He knew how much Viggo had wanted him from that very first moment in the dining hall. He knew how much he had hurt Viggo by denying him. He knew how Viggo worried about what this would do to his relationship with Henry, and he knew that Viggo worried Orlando would never want an old man like him.
"I do want you," he said out loud even though he knew Viggo could read the thought in his mind. "I do." He brought his lips to Viggo's and sighed into the depth of such a simple kiss.
"I love you," he said.
Viggo's arms tightened around him. "I know."
Orlando sighed and threw back the cowl of his robe. "It isn't working very well."
Liv gracefully sank down to sit down in front of him. "I just know where you like to hide." She reached out and touched his knee. "I heard about you and Henry's dad. Are you okay?"
Orlando shook his head. "No. I'm afraid."
"Fear leads to anger."
"I've heard Yoda's lecture too." Orlando sighed. "I'm trying to let it go, but every time I try to meditate, my shields start to slip. I know it was the will of the Force and I'm supposed to accept it, but I'm not ready for it."
Liv rested her hands on his shoulders and squeezed them gently. "Do you want me to shield you while you meditate?"
"Do you have time?"
Liv nodded. "Sean's in a Council meeting. He'll be there all day." She squeezed his shoulders again. "Do you want me to shield you?"
"Yes, please."
Liv let her mind just brush around edge of his, finding the shape of it. She extended her shields out and around him, bringing him within them.
"Oh. Oh, Force, Liv. Thank you." He could still feel Viggo--he didn't think anything short of death would stop that--but everything else was muted. He relaxed into a meditative trance and let the currents of the Force flow through and around him.
He eased himself out of it some time later and breathed a sigh of relief.
Liv brushed a hand over his hair. "You're welcome." She let her hands fall back into her own lap. "Henry was right. You're just glowing with it."
***
"You're here to talk about Orlando, aren't you?"
Viggo nodded. "You already know?"
Henry grinned. "Yeah. It's all over the Temple." He shrugged. "Besides, Orlando came to see me."
Viggo winced. "I should have told you."
"It's okay." Henry reached out and touched his arm. "He's one of my friends and you're my dad." He considered for a moment. "He's scared, but he's just glowing with your bond. You're holding it in a little better, but I can see it from you too."
Viggo smiled faintly. "I can feel him all the time."
Henry hugged his father. "He'll come around once he knows how great you are."
Viggo kissed the top of Henry's head. "Thank you, Henry."
***
Viggo stopped listening and looked up. After trying unsuccessfully to recapture his attention, Sean turned and followed his gaze across the dining hall. Orlando was just coming through the door. Sean watched his eyes flick toward their table, toward Viggo, and then quickly away.
He managed to avoid looking back over at Viggo while he got his food, but once he had a tray in his hands, something drew him to Viggo's table. He sat next to Viggo, close, pressed together from hip to knee. He greeted Henry and Liv, and nodded to Sean.
They tried to carry on a conversation, but neither Viggo nor Orlando paid much attention to it. Henry eventually snapped at them.
"Would you two just go fuck or meditate together or whatever it is you need to do?"
Orlando blushed, and he and Viggo said, "Henry!" in the same shocked tone of voice.
"Look," Henry said, "you have a Force-bond. You never have to be alone again. You have someone who will always love you. You're so lucky. And you don't even care!" He stood and yanked his tray off the table. He swept out of the dining hall, returning his tray on the way.
Viggo sighed heavily. "I'd better--"
Liv reached out and put a hand on his forearm. "I'll go."
Orlando muttered a feeble excuse about needing to be somewhere else and fled.
"He's right," Sean said when the padawans were gone.
"I know that," Viggo growled, frustrated. "I know he's right." He raked his hands through his hair. "I've tried, and he just shuts me out."
Sean snorted. "So make him listen to you." He reached across and touched the back of Viggo's hand. "The Force thinks you belong together. You won't hurt him." He removed his hand. "Go on. Make him listen to you."
Viggo dropped his head. "I don't know how."
Sean's lips quirked. "Listen to the Force."
***
Viggo opened himself up to the bond and let it lead him to Orlando. He knocked on the door he found himself in front of. He knocked again and stretched his awareness out to reach Orlando.
Orlando opened the door only enough to see Viggo. "Viggo," he said softly.
"Can I come in?"
Orlando reluctantly opened the door the rest of the way and let him in.
Viggo couldn't keep himself from cupping Orlando's cheek in his hand any more than Orlando could stop from leaning into the same touch.
"We have to talk." Viggo's words echoed loudly in the empty room.
Orlando nodded. "Sit down," he offered. Viggo sat at one end of the couch. After a short moment of indecision, Orlando took the other end.
"Henry's right," Viggo said. "We have to resolve this." He reached across the seemingly endless expanse of couch separating them and touched Orlando's knee. "Can't you feel how much this hurts?" His thumb stroked small circles on Orlando's leg.
Orlando closed his eyes and reached into himself. It did hurt. He'd managed to avoid thinking about it so much that he hadn't even realized how much it hurt to willingly cut himself off from Viggo. He hadn't realized how much it hurt Viggo to be cut off from him.
"Yes," he whispered. He bowed his head. "I'm sorry," he said softly.
Viggo opened his arms, and Orlando hesitantly came across the couch to settle into them. They let out a combined sigh of relief.
"You have to let me in," Viggo said, his lips brushing against Orlando's hair.
It was an effort to make his breathing slow with Viggo so close, but Orlando managed it. He reached down inside himself and started to dismantle the shields blocking his awareness of Viggo. He reached out along the bond toward Viggo and gasped as it flared to life in his mind.
Viggo was there, everywhere. Viggo knew everything about him and he knew everything about Viggo. He knew how much Viggo had wanted him from that very first moment in the dining hall. He knew how much he had hurt Viggo by denying him. He knew how Viggo worried about what this would do to his relationship with Henry, and he knew that Viggo worried Orlando would never want an old man like him.
"I do want you," he said out loud even though he knew Viggo could read the thought in his mind. "I do." He brought his lips to Viggo's and sighed into the depth of such a simple kiss.
"I love you," he said.
Viggo's arms tightened around him. "I know."