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2023 was a really hard year. I had a midlife crisis about fandom. An institutional unwillingness to stand up for and support queer people filled me with rage and heartbreak and caused me to leave an organization I've belonged to off and on for most of my life. I had major dental surgery (the first part of replacing my front four bottom teeth with implants) that took up a lot of my energy for several weeks and kicked off dental work that won't be fully done for months. One of my book clubs ended. I continued to feel really lonely in some very specific ways. I'm still extremely cautious about COVID so I don't really go places or do things. The world is, you know, the way it is.

There were also some good things about this year: I had some really great afternoons with my family. My roof got replaced. I got my own Costco card. I got to hold a baby and be the bedtime story guest reader and a toddler sat on my lap for a bit. I continued to be very good at my job, where I got more responsibility, a significant raise, and my own office. I talked to one of my oldest friends on the phone at least once a week. My BFF and I watched TV shows together and emailed back and forth about it. I read some amazing books and watched some really excellent TV shows. I ate an orange while thinking about liberation on Passover and now I love oranges and have opinions about the best varieties.


Create. Oof. I did not do a lot of this. I did at least some journaling all but one week, did a little bit of fic writing, did some small bits of drawing, and did a little bit of baking. It was a hard year! I didn't have much creative energy.

Strengthen connections. This is still one of my favorite things to fill out in my weekly check-ins. I saw my family every month, talked to a friend on the phone every week, hung out with my local friends, and went to book club meetings. I forgot that I had a specific goal to get better at texting with people. I did a little bit of texting with a few people, but didn't really figure out how to feel comfortable over text.

Connect to God/engage in Jewish practice. I kept up my weekly Shabbat practice. I also took two classes. The most exciting one was Alef-Bet Basics through SVARA, which is a yeshiva specifically by and for queer and trans people. I didn't know until I was in it just how much it would mean to me to be in a queer Jewish space.

Improve/maintain my mental/physical health. This did not go well! I stayed up too late a lot and didn't go walking that frequently and had a depressive episode and a midlife crisis. I can always try again.

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