A Post of Small, Update-like Comments

[rsadelle]

Life
Work became ridiculously busy the day after MLK day, and looks to be that way for the foreseeable future. I hadn't realized how much I was depending on work downtime to stay caught up on my internet life. In the meantime, I have been reading very compelling books and foolishly staying up late to do so, with the end result that I'm very tired.

Communication
I've been thinking about this a lot, but haven't said anything because I don't want to seem like I'm complaining or fishing for something: I have one group of friends who only talk to me about fandom via email, and then I have this whole other group of friends who will talk to me about fandom on LJ and Twitter. It's kind of strange.

Fandom: Bandom Big Bang
bandombigbang posted the rules and sign up posts. I'm still totally unclear as to whether Leighton/Vicky-T is okay or not. They're also fairly adamant about people keeping their stories secret until posting time, which I really have not done. I'm still trying to figure out if I want to email and ask if Leighton/Vicky-T is okay or just say to hell with it and maybe write something else for wave two later. (Assuming I ever finish this Leighton/Vicky-T story.) Opinions on this point are more than welcome!

Fandom: Space Big Bang
I'm not writing anything for spacebigbang, but you should! I will totally read outside my fandom for space AUs.

Fandom: Empires
I've been trying to work out an actual story about girl!Sean in my head. It's not going well. Girl!Sean is difficult to conceptualize, much less write.

I have been writing a lot of Empires kink fic in my head, but none of it has yet made it out of my head. Someday, maybe.

Fandom: Panic!
Dear Panic!,

I am, in theory, very interested in your current goings-on, but in reality I'm tired and trying to keep up with my writing and my email. I promise to eventually listen to your new song.

Much love,
Ruth

Fandom: Black Cards
Bebe keeps tweeting pictures of her baby cousin. I think the cousin is actually too old for this plot bunny, but I really want a story where the cousin is actually not a cousin but her daughter. I don't know what else would happen in this story.

Fandom: TV
I am caught up with Big Love and Greek, but I realized yesterday that I'd forgotten that Friday Night Lights was back from hiatus, so I am behind on that. I'm also behind on Nikita. And I have two movies in the house (one from the library, one from Netflix). Alas, the problems of a fangirl.

I've also watched the first few eps of Jack and Bobby on Netflix, and it's dated in a very interesting way. The girl playing the love interest is not the kind of standardized pretty that would let her be on a CW show now.

Books
I'm reading Libba Bray's trilogy (A Great and Terrible Beauty, Rebel Angels, The Sweet Far Thing), which is incredibly compelling, even if I find it iffy as historical fiction. She does appear to be the kind of writer who learned to write as she went along. Part of the reason I'm reading them is that I remember people talking about them being femslashy. I'm a little disappointed on that point. Perhaps I just read too much explicitly homoerotic fiction for mere subtext to satisfy me.

Comments

[inlovewithnight.livejournal.com]

The way I read the BBB rules was that you couldn't talk about your fic explicitly in the official BBB chatter comm. They don't care what you do in your own journal.

[idahophoenix.livejournal.com]

Re communication. So which mode of communication works better for you--comments across the social media that you're on, or just e-mail?

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

I signed up for BBB. And am going to sign up for SLB. THIS MAKES ME FEEL REALLY CRAZY.


I've been trying to work out an actual story about girl!Sean in my head. It's not going well. Girl!Sean is difficult to conceptualize, much less write.

What about it do you find difficult? I have an easier time conceptualizing Girl!Tom, for some reason. But I've got such a clear image in my head of her, I think that's why it's so easy. I don't have many thoughts about Girl!Sean actually.

Also, all the Empires kink fic forever. (I have this whole theory about Tomrad really being into being claimed and marked and belonging that I can never quite get written.)

[rsadelle]

I kind of got the sense that the rule was limited to that only because that was the only place they could control it. (My real position is that no one knows who I am, so they won't know who the hell is writing this story anyway.)

[inlovewithnight.livejournal.com]

Well, yeah, but really, they don't care what anyone does in their own journals. They can't. They have lives and better things to do than police all the writers in Big Bang. :)

[rsadelle]

There isn't just one answer! It all depends. Things that are private should stay with email or Twitter direct messages (if they're short). I really like public fannish conversation (people commenting on LJ entries, conversation on Twitter) because other people have an opportunity to read it too or join in - but there's also a place for email-based fannish conversation (especially with things people aren't willing to say publicly). I read/butt into a lot of conversations in other people's LJs, and I know at least one of the people who follows both inlovewithnight and me on Twitter likes watching us plot bunny back and forth.

[rsadelle]

EGADS. That's a lot of banging. (Any and all puns intended.)

I don't know! I just can't see Sean as a girl. One of my friends said it's because he would be the weirdest girl ever, and maybe that's it. I, too, find girl!Tom totally easy to conceptualize/write.

Mmmm, kink. Everything I've been writing in my head recently has Sean subbing, except the werewolf story, which is a whole other animal of kink. (This is probably at least in part because what one of my friends said she liked about two of my early Empires snippets was that they were about people taking care of Sean.)

[rsadelle]

I did mention it in the bands post too.

I think my biggest misgiving is that I have no idea if I can finish this story for the deadline. I've been working on it for seven months, and it's 35,000 words, and they haven't even gotten any evidence they can use against Gabe. I guess I could up my daily word count and maybe make it, or make it for wave two.

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

I keep telling myself, "Christina, you wrote 18K for BGBB last year...YOU CAN DO 20K WITH TWO FICS. COME ON." (ahahaa, now I've got bang stuck in my head. \o/)

I find my mental image of Sean to be kind of androgynous? Like...almost like Tilda Swinton, in a way. Like, I think girl!Sean would be very angular, not too far removed from maybe girl!Beckett. I definitely don't see girl!Sean being soft and curvy.


And ooohh. I think that Sean would be very versatile when it comes to stuff like that; like there are certain things he likes to be on the receiving end, but there are some things he likes TO DO, you know? I feel like Sean's an exceptionally flexible sub. And that's interesting, because the werewolf personality, the standard, is very different, but one that I can see for Sean, because it does come across as very believable.

And yesssss! People taking care of Sean should be out there more...Empires taking care of Empires should be in the world more. (It is one thing that always strikes me...sure, there are a lot of bands who you can see the absolute love and adoration they have for their other members, but Sean himself has said that he feels the band functions BEST when it's all of them together. A lot of bands aren't like that.)

[rsadelle]

You can totally do it!

It's less the physical than the personality. (Physically, I don't think Sean would be that angular. He's a little soft for that.) I just can't get a handle on Sean as a girl. I think he comes across as very masculine in a really interesting way - like, I don't get a manly man vibe from him, but I'm just having a hard time seeing him as a girl.

Oh, the werewolf thing is this whole other *hands* thing that is complicated by being het, so he's all possessive about girl!Tom, but I'm also trying to make him feminist-minded so he thinks she should have her own life too.

Yessss. Empires taking care of each other is the best thing.

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

Hm...when I wrote girl!Sean and girl!Tom, I really just wrote it as them, but they happened to be girls. The only thing I can think of that I wrote differently than if it was them as guys was that Sean crowded closer to Tom than I would really have boy!Sean. I think that maybe girl!Sean has less regard for personal space, maybe, but only if you're close to her. And I don't think that there would be TOO many differences between girl or boy Sean, actually.


And ahahaha, oh man, yes. Does Tom ever have to talk to Sean about the issues he sometimes has with being possessive? Is it a thing that the closer they get to the moon, Sean gets MORE possessive?

[rsadelle]

I think that lack of difference is part of what makes it hard! Men and women are treated so differently in our society that surely she has to be different from boy!Sean in some ways, but it's hard to figure out what those ways are.

Ha! Sometimes she tells him to knock it off, but she's actually calmer about the whole thing than he is. She accepts that he's a wolf; he's still working out the tension between the wolf that knows she's his and the human that wants her to have autonomy over her own life.

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

And too, especially within a scene....no matter how progressive it is, there's going to be a difference in treatment. However, like you said, it is hard to pin down what those ways are.

And man...I really want to read a million words of this, seriously. In what ways does Sean try to give her space but also balance the whole, RAWR POSSESSIVE thing?

[rsadelle]

Someday (hopefully someday soon), I will finish the sex scene and then the story and you can see how it all works out.

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

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