Kink Fic Rec/Unrec: Brendon/Spencer
Jul. 2nd, 2010 12:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rsadelleToday I am both reccing and unreccing the same story, and for the same reason. Before you click the link, I highly recommend you read something of what I have to say about this story, or at least the bolded sentence below.
Months and months ago I clicked through from delicious bookmarks to I want to choke (u) and get sick off of you like cigarette smoke by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
lalejandra. I read it in the morning, and was upset by it the whole rest of the day. Ten months later, I'm still kind of traumatized by it. At the time I read it, someone had commented to say that her warnings were incomplete, but she hadn't seen that comment and changed them yet. I don't think it would have made a difference for me because this story hews closely to my cardinal rule of sex scenes - how they feel is more important than what they do, and this is increasingly true the more people in the scene or the kinkier it is - and it was the feel, not the actions that traumatized me. So here's my additional warning: This story made me feel unsafe. I'm not sure that's ever happened to me before. That's why I'm unreccing this. But it's also the reason I'm reccing it. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that my feeling unsafe meant it was really well written.
The plot of the story is that Brendon and Spencer have a bdsm relationship that doesn't include sex. Spencer is the dom, Brendon's the sub. The story (which is really one long scene) takes place just after Brendon gets home from spending a day with Sarah after the Blink tour. The story is from Spencer's point of view. In the course of the scene, they talk about renegotiating to include sex.
The part of the story I keep thinking about is this ("Sinatra" is Brendon's safeword):
There were a lot of comments from people who said they wanted to see what happened when Brendon chose Spencer over Sarah, and this is another place where she really put me in Spencer's head: at the end of the story, I wasn't entirely convinced Brendon would choose him because Spencer wasn't convinced Brendon would choose him.
The author obviously had in mind that Brendon would choose Spencer because she made an interesting comment about how the future in her head involves them learning to have vanilla sex and talk to each other and just generally communicate in ways that don't involve kink.
I'm bringing this story up now because one of the sequels she wrote is showing up in my delicious tag searches, and I'm afraid to click on it. I'm hoping that one of you has or will read the sequels and tell me if they're safe for me to read.
Months and months ago I clicked through from delicious bookmarks to I want to choke (u) and get sick off of you like cigarette smoke by
lalejandra. I read it in the morning, and was upset by it the whole rest of the day. Ten months later, I'm still kind of traumatized by it. At the time I read it, someone had commented to say that her warnings were incomplete, but she hadn't seen that comment and changed them yet. I don't think it would have made a difference for me because this story hews closely to my cardinal rule of sex scenes - how they feel is more important than what they do, and this is increasingly true the more people in the scene or the kinkier it is - and it was the feel, not the actions that traumatized me. So here's my additional warning: This story made me feel unsafe. I'm not sure that's ever happened to me before. That's why I'm unreccing this. But it's also the reason I'm reccing it. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that my feeling unsafe meant it was really well written.The plot of the story is that Brendon and Spencer have a bdsm relationship that doesn't include sex. Spencer is the dom, Brendon's the sub. The story (which is really one long scene) takes place just after Brendon gets home from spending a day with Sarah after the Blink tour. The story is from Spencer's point of view. In the course of the scene, they talk about renegotiating to include sex.
The part of the story I keep thinking about is this ("Sinatra" is Brendon's safeword):
"We'll keep going tonight, like always. No sex." Spencer pauses. Fucking hell. He's been an adult for a really long time, and sometimes he resents it more than others. "Then... I guess you'll talk to Sarah, and after that we can -- you know. Then we renegotiate, and if you still want. If you." He swallows hard. "If you still want me, we can renegotiate for that."The fact that the pov character feeling unsafe made me feel unsafe means that the author did a really damn good job of putting me into his head.
"Are you fucking shitting me?" Brendon lets go of his heels, and sits down hard on his ass. "Ow, fuck."
"Jesus, Brendon." Spencer rubs his eyes for a moment. "Sinatra."
"No -- wait --"
"Sinatra." Spencer pulls his legs to his chest and crosses them, his knees pressed against Brendon's knees. "We can't have this conversation if you're not here, Brendon."
"I am fucking here," Brendon practically snarls. "I'd've --"
"Dude, you have to consent --"
"If I wasn't consenting, I'd have used the safeword --"
"Maybe I don't feel safe!" yells Spencer. He leans forward into Brendon's space. "Did you ever think of that?"
There were a lot of comments from people who said they wanted to see what happened when Brendon chose Spencer over Sarah, and this is another place where she really put me in Spencer's head: at the end of the story, I wasn't entirely convinced Brendon would choose him because Spencer wasn't convinced Brendon would choose him.
The author obviously had in mind that Brendon would choose Spencer because she made an interesting comment about how the future in her head involves them learning to have vanilla sex and talk to each other and just generally communicate in ways that don't involve kink.
I'm bringing this story up now because one of the sequels she wrote is showing up in my delicious tag searches, and I'm afraid to click on it. I'm hoping that one of you has or will read the sequels and tell me if they're safe for me to read.