You Have My Heart (in your hands) Soundtrack

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Spoiler-Free Track List

1. Should've Said No - Taylor Swift


2. 40 Steps (Bonus Track) - The Academy Is...


3. Papa Don't Preach - Madonna


4. The Church Of Hot Addiction - Cobra Starship


5. I Touch Myself - The Bens


6. Hush Little Baby - Yo-Yo Ma and Bobby McFerrin


7. Save Your Best - Steve Reynolds


8. You - Fisher


9. Some Sweet Mourning - Underground Lovers


10. Feelin' Love - Paula Cole


11. Fucking Boyfriend - The Bird And The Bee


12. You're It - Halloween, Alaska


13. Too Good To Be - New Found Glory


14. The World Has Its Shine (But I Would Drop It On A Dime) - Cobra Starship

Notes and Annotated Track List

When I realized this story was getting really long, I decided I wanted to try to make a soundtrack to go with it. I chose songs for this in a few different ways. There were a couple of songs I knew I wanted on it. There were the songs mentioned in the story. There were a few I had to hunt for because I knew I wanted something like that, but not which song specifically. And then there are the rest of them, which are things that came up when I was listening to my entire iTunes library on shuffle and just seemed to fit.

What I found interesting about making the soundtrack is that where the story is wholly from Victoria's point of view, this is just as much from Gabe's. I think the soundtrack is also far more overtly romantic than the story itself.

Special thanks go to siryn99 who had "Papa Don't Preach" when I didn't.

1. Should've Said No - Taylor Swift

You should've said no, you should've gone home
You should've thought twice before you let it all go

Victoria wanders around the venue in Charleston, just opening doors and checking things out, exploring. The door isn't locked, isn't even really closed all the way, nothing to warn her not to open it.

Behind it is Jack with some girl, maybe a tech, maybe venue staff. Doesn't really matter who the fuck she is because Jack is fucking her.

I knew I wanted a breakup song of the "that bastard cheated on me" variety to match the prologue. I read through lists of breakup songs, and I think I eventually settled on this one because I had the live version from the Jonas Brothers' 3-D Concert Experience soundtrack.

2. 40 Steps (Bonus Track) - The Academy Is...

But I would follow you anywhere

Gabe gets up off the couch and comes over to her. "It's going to be okay," he says, and he wraps his arms around her. A moment later, Nate's at her back, and then Alex and Ryland, and she just lets them hold her up in the center of them.

This is one of the songs I knew I wanted on the soundtrack. Fan speculation is that William Beckett wrote it about his partner telling him she was pregnant. It fits for that reason, and I like the way "I would follow you anywhere" fits with the way Victoria's band is going to be there for her.

3. Papa Don't Preach - Madonna

But I made up my mind, I'm keeping my baby

She's sitting next to Gabe, and she reaches for his hand. He hums a few bars of "Papa Don't Preach," and Victoria stifles a burst of giggles.

This is in the story because of course Gabe would hum this.

4. The Church Of Hot Addiction - Cobra Starship

Hey, you gotta get the Cobra bless now

That night, just before they go on, Gabe switches up the set list and replaces "Send My Love to the Dance Floor" with "Church of Hot Addiction." He comes over to Victoria and passes his hand over her head with "get the Cobra bless now."

This was also in the story. I mostly liked the idea of Gabe offering a Cobra blessing to the baby.

5. I Touch Myself - The Bens

When I think about you
I touch myself

Someone must open the door between the bunks and the lounge because there's a burst of sound: people talking, music, a video game, and Gabe's laughter cascading over everything else.

Victoria's whole body arches up into her hands as she comes. She gasps for air as quietly as she can, trembling with just how good it feels.

Every masturbation scene needs a version of this song over it. Somewhere that I did not bookmark is a story that also has five versions of "I Touch Myself" for download. Of them all, I thought this one fit the rest of the soundtrack best.

6. Hush Little Baby - Yo-Yo Ma and Bobby McFerrin

And if that mockingbird won't sing
Papa's gonna buy you a diamond ring.

Gabe sings the absolute dirtiest version of "Hush, Little Baby" that Victoria's ever heard. It's actually pretty impressive given that the only change he makes to the lyrics is to substitute "Papi" for "Papa."

This song is also in the story. I couldn't come up with a sleazy version to put on the soundtrack, so I settled for a somewhat strange one.

7. Save Your Best - Steve Reynolds

Put your bags in the basement
'Cuz I don't think we'll be needin' them anymore.

They spend a week unpacking and figuring out where to keep things in the common areas. They pack away most of the pregnancy and parenting books, and Gabe takes them to the basement storage while Victoria arranges the ones they're keeping handy on a shelf in the living room. They take turns running loads of baby clothes through the washing machine so they'll be soft and clean for Tyler. Gabe forbids Victoria to lift anything heavy.

This is a song that came up when I was listening to iTunes on shuffle that I thought would fit the mood I wanted for the soundtrack. I find it very romantic, and it's a good moving in song.

8. You - Fisher

Mommy’s sun,
her moon, her stars

She understands, now, what Christine meant about not believing she could love another person so much. Victoria can hardly believe the way she feels about Tyler, and she's pretty sure Gabe is feeling the same thing.

This is another song that came up on shuffle that seemed to fit the mood. This to me is the perfect mother-child love song for this story.

9. Some Sweet Mourning - Underground Lovers

And in the morning sun
You'll arrive all brand new

Victoria clings to Gabe for a long moment, and then makes herself pull back. "Okay, okay." Her smile feels a little wavery, but it's there. "Tomorrow I will sing and play my keytar and let someone else worry about Tyler."

Gabe looks at her for a moment. "You want to go watch him sleep?"

"Is it lame if I do?"

"Nah." Gabe throws his arm around her shoulders. "I'll come with you."

This also came up on shuffle and fit. I can't find the lyrics to it online and never do manage to listen to them closely enough to catch them, so I suspect they might not quite fit. I do like "You'll arrive all brand new;" it seems to fit for a story about a baby.

10. Feelin' Love - Paula Cole

You make me feel like a sticky pistil
Leaning into her stamen.

The day after that, when they pull into Salt Lake City and Gabe passes Victoria as he goes back to sleep for a while, he runs his hand across the line of her jaw and murmurs, "Hotel tonight."

She should not be so turned on while holding Tyler.

I knew I needed a sex song for the sex scene. My first attempt was the Spice Girls' "2 Become 1" because I liked the idea of catchy pop for a Cobra Starship story, but it didn't quite fit with the rest of the soundtrack. This does.

11. Fucking Boyfriend - The Bird And The Bee

Would you ever be my, would you be my fucking boyfriend?

She wonders if this is just a tour fling or if she'll still get to have Gabe when they go back home, but she's afraid to talk to Gabe about it. She likes the way it feels real when he tells the audience, "Give it up for my girl Victoria," and she doesn't want to lose that.

This also came up on shuffle and I knew I wanted it for the story. It might seem odd to put it after the sex song, but in the story, Victoria's sure about the sex first but not the relationship.

12. You're It - Halloween, Alaska

you're it
the silver on a little cloud

Gabe leans in close to whisper in her ear. "I don't want you to ever find another guy to be in your life."

All of the air goes out of Victoria's lungs. "Oh." She struggles against the tears prickling at the corners of her eyes. "Gabe," she breathes.

"Hey," he says, wiping at her eyes with his thumbs. "Hey, babe, Victoria, don't cry."

Victoria grabs at his hand and presses it to her lips. "I love you," she says against his skin. "I don't want anyone else raising Tyler."

Yet another song I dragged into the playlist because it felt right when it came up on shuffle. I like the way it fits the idea that they're it for each other.

13. Too Good To Be - New Found Glory

You have my heart in your hands
You have my heart so don't, don't let it go

"I think he's just as tired as you are," Gabe says. "He fell right to sleep." He bends over to kiss her, and then takes Gizmo and puts him out into the hallway before he closes the door.

"It's been a long day." Victoria watches Gabe line his shoes up neatly in the closet and carefully put his clothes in the hamper as he takes them off.

"It has." Gabe ducks into the bathroom to brush his teeth. He comes back and turns off the overhead light, leaving only one of the bedside lamps on. "Tyler did pretty well, though, for all that."

"I think being on tour probably got him used to chaos."

"Probably," Gabe agrees. He pulls back the covers and gets into bed with her. "You ever consider having another one?"

Victoria reaches for him. "Come convince me."

Not only did I pull this onto the playlist because it came up on shuffle, but every time it came up on shuffle after that I wanted to put it on the playlist until I finally recognized that it was already there. You may notice this is where I took the title from. Now that I'm done with the soundtrack and the story, if I had to pick one song to represent the story, it would be this one. To me "you have my heart in your hands" means Tyler has Gabe and Victoria's hearts in his hands as much as they have each other's hearts.

14. The World Has Its Shine (But I Would Drop It On A Dime) - Cobra Starship

Not long ago
I gave up hope
But you came along
You gave me something I could hold on to

"Love you," she says against his mouth.

"Te quiero," he answers back.

Tyler echoes both of them in a chant of "Love you, te quiero, love you."

This is the song I knew I wanted on the soundtrack from the very start, and I knew I wanted it to be the last song. This is Cobra Starship's love song.